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My goal for 2020 is to share my heart more!
I felt very alone going through my divorce and I would love it if I can help one person feel less alone by my words.
Today’s thought…
Earlier today I was thinking about what I could have done to save my marriage last year.
What was god’s purpose of pushing me to my breaking point with my ex? I never wanted a divorce. I always dreamed of telling my grandkids that I met my husband at age 16.
Why can’t he just be the man I need him to be?
Why can’t I love myself enough to walk away instead of crying myself to sleep and having panic attacks every night?
I need to stay in this marriage so my children don’t have to be in a broken home…
I can’t do this financially on my own.. What can I do to make him put me first?
I’ve learned the answer is … NOTHING!
It took me 12 years of marriage to realize, you can’t change anybody but yourself.
I was at my breaking point where I felt trapped and I couldn’t breathe. I had no choice but to put me first for once. My anxiety was at its highest, my migraines were debilitating, I would have panic attacks where I couldn’t catch my breath.
I will end my thoughts with this…
You are enough!
Life is way too short to live like that. There is definitely something to the statement “Stress will kill you”
Choose happiness!
You deserve to be treated nothing short of AMAZING!
Choose YOU!
You will get through this!
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!!!!
Please message me if you need a friend 😘
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