Warning, this is a very raw and personal post!
I have anxiety! I feel like it started in High School and has gradually gotten worse. After I had my son 10 years ago I had this fear that someone was going to hurt him and I was VERY emotional. I was diagnosed with post partum depression. I tried 5 different anxiety/depression medications with no success as 3/5 made me vomit within 20-30 minutes after taking it, 1 made me paranoid and the other made me a zombie (I couldn’t stay awake). I was then told to see a counselor.
I dealt with anxiety by exercising, writing in my journal, meditation, music therapy and deep breathing until recently.
Recently I have been going through a great deal of stress, been having increased anxiety, not being able to sleep because when I lay down my heart races and my mind takes off. I broke down crying at work, I cry myself to sleep at night and I feel like I’m barely afloat some days.
I feel embarrassed, ashamed, I ask myself what’s wrong with me, does this mean I’m weak? Why do I cry all the time?
I had a conversation with my primary care Dr and she started me on a low dose of Zoloft. I also am working on myself and doing what makes me happy. For the longest time I put myself on the back burner. Recently I’ve realized, that is not healthy! Being a mom is fricken hard! I have this quote on my makeup stand that says,
I also recently purchased the anxiety blanket from Blanquil. It isn’t cheap but I thought, I will do whatever it takes right now to get some good sleep.
A little about Blanquil…
“Engineered to be about 8% – 15% of your body weight, BlanQuil helps relax the nervous system by simulating the feeling of being held or hugged. This increases seratonin and melatonin levels while decreasing cortisol levels. Thus improving and promoting restful sleep at the same time. All without ever filling a prescription.”
The blanket is 20 pounds and I worried that I would feel trapped! Well, I have had it for a week and this is my review… I’m loving it! It is very warm but I’m ALWAYS cold, I’m sleeping better and I am falling asleep faster. It’s not magic as my anxiety/stress is still present, but it is helping. For more information, visit http://www.myblanquil.com
As Always, Thank you for following my journey!